20 January 2018
Hi mommy, it’s Jaelene, the one you called “bulengleng”, back then even if I’m already a grown up, you still treated me as your baby. 8 years have already passed since you went home to be with the Lord, it has been 8 years since the last time I saw your beautiful face. 8 long years of not having someone who unconditionally loved me, demonstrating the love of JESUS to me. Oh, how I missed having a mother who believed in me and prayed for the best in me.
I thought about you last night, I still dream about you most of the time, and in my dreams you are so much alive, that when I woke up I thought you are actually back here with us. I know, you will not like that idea because right now, you are so much alive and rejoicing in Heaven, together with our Lord. You no longer feel any pain and there, you are now free to run and walk in the streets made of gold, hand in hand with Jesus.
But, I still think of you most of the time, I know it’s not God’s will for me to wallow in sadness and still be stuck in the past for the Lord has made beautiful things in the present and even in the future. But there are times that I want to talk to you, to share with you the events of my life. Mommy, I’m already 25 years old.. haha your baby is already a lady now. I wonder if I actually matured enough. Yes, time flew so fast, and I missed being just a kid who have nothing to think of and would just sit in your lap and listen to your beautiful voice.
I just want to thank the Lord, for He has been my comforter, my bestfriend, the One I can run and talk to whenever I am filled with pain and sadness.. I also praise the Lord for a mom like you, for you are also the reason why it had been easier for me to know and accept the Love of Jesus, for I already witnessed it in you. Thank You Lord for my mom and thank You JESUS, for You are my greatest delight and hope in this world.
Mommy, you are one of the witnesses in the clouds mentioned in Hebrews 12:1 that surrounds us here on earth and is encouraging us in our walk with Christ. And since JESUS is the very prize that awaits me in the finish line, I will still walk and run this race though sometimes it gets tiring. But none of the trials and sufferings we encounter here could equate to the joy that we will receive in JESUS.
I love you mommy. 🙂 More adventures await me but I know that I’m not alone for JESUS is always with me and in me.
I love You JESUS, my Lord and my strength. Thank You for giving me joy unspeakable in Your presence.
– Jaelene –
P.s. to all reading this who still have your moms or any loved ones with you, make the most of your time with them, show them the love and care they need, and most importantly, share to them the love of JESUS. For He is the only One who makes a difference in our lives and gives meaning to it. Shalom, Blessings in JESUS’ Name. 🙂 🙂 🙂